[More than the Bond allows L to actually empathize with the desire. His memory of the evening's later parts is hazy, but he knows that the snowballing effect of the alcohol on his emotions isn't a comfortable thing to reflect on. He'd talked to so many people tonight, and none of it was safe. None of it was alright.]
I... think.
[As in, he's not sure. Maybe he intentionally jumped; maybe he was pushed. He's not even particularly clear on how he managed to get out; maybe a ship hand saw him and fished him out. Maybe he was always in shallow water and climbed out on his own. Maybe his magic saved him in an inventive and reflexive moment while his brain was working, just not recording memories.
It's frustrating not to know. And also to reflect on what could have happened.]
I just want to sleep. Is that OK?
[Another method of getting away. No coincidence, that the complete insomniac is asking for this now.]
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I... think.
[As in, he's not sure. Maybe he intentionally jumped; maybe he was pushed. He's not even particularly clear on how he managed to get out; maybe a ship hand saw him and fished him out. Maybe he was always in shallow water and climbed out on his own. Maybe his magic saved him in an inventive and reflexive moment while his brain was working, just not recording memories.
It's frustrating not to know. And also to reflect on what could have happened.]
I just want to sleep. Is that OK?
[Another method of getting away. No coincidence, that the complete insomniac is asking for this now.]