[It bitterly wishes it had the strength or... steadiness to get itself up out of bed right now to scold him, or to help him, but it doesn't have it in it to do either, so it just... lays in bed.
However, despite its typical annoyance-- something familiar-- there is... something else. Understanding. Maybe a quiet appreciation.
It understands needing to numb... everything. And... it is, on some level, grateful to have its thoughts muddied a bit, to have an excuse for its inability to think as sharply as it used to. It doesn't fix the pain... but it does mask it, allow it to pretend for a little while.]
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[It bitterly wishes it had the strength or... steadiness to get itself up out of bed right now to scold him, or to help him, but it doesn't have it in it to do either, so it just... lays in bed.
However, despite its typical annoyance-- something familiar-- there is... something else. Understanding. Maybe a quiet appreciation.
It understands needing to numb... everything. And... it is, on some level, grateful to have its thoughts muddied a bit, to have an excuse for its inability to think as sharply as it used to. It doesn't fix the pain... but it does mask it, allow it to pretend for a little while.]